Iâ€™ve always wanted to be one of those people who donâ€™t take everything so seriously; who isnâ€™t so affected by what other people do and say; who doesnâ€™t feel quite soÂ deeply about everything. I consciously work on building a thicker skin, but alas â€“ some personality traits die hard.
Being highly emotionally sensitive is both a blessing and curse. It allows me to beÂ extremely empathetic and feel even the most benign vibrations ripple through myÂ core like a pebble hitting the surface of glass-top water. This hypersensitivity alsoÂ makes dealing with any sort of turmoil a challenge.
I recently had a situation arise that produced an instant emotional reflex. I almostÂ instantly flared into rage, then transitioned to hurt, finally cresting into extremeÂ devastation in a very short amount of time. This is pattern for me and breakingÂ personal behavioral patterns is a tough order.
If we are truly put on this earth to learn new lessons each time around and moveÂ through them, I am going through that later part right now. Becoming aware ofÂ these messages is just part of the battle. Identifying and taking ownership of ourÂ seeming faults can be a teaching in itself, but really taking the information andÂ moving forward â€“ that is where true life progression lies. It is so much easier toÂ just react the same way, do what youâ€™ve always done and carry on rather thanÂ authentically change and grow.
Transformation is a painful process.
And even when you are ready to begin to alter, the aches that accompany the courseÂ may turn even the strongest of humans into frightened babies. Because who likesÂ discomfort? Itâ€™s uncomfortable!
A caterpillar crawled into my house from my back patio the other day. I imagineÂ him; the unbelievable physical change that he will soon undergo, all the while shieldedÂ in his chrysalis. That protective shell rocks him into a deep slumber, giving himÂ refuge from any physical or emotional pain that may result from the process ofÂ turni…Read more...