By Andy Tarnoff Publisher Published Feb 20, 2012 at 1:08 PM Photography: Eron Laber

Something has been weird about this Brewers' off-season. By now, I should be chomping at the bit for baseball, holding my breath for that first radio broadcast from Arizona. And indeed, on Saturday, I thought to myself, "I'd like to be listening to a Brewers game right now." Then the feeling passed.

I think it's the way the season ended, ever so close to the World Series, that has me feeling a little pensive. Like there's no way the Brewers will ever be so good again. They came so close, then they broke my heart.

It still hasn't mended yet.

Then there's the Prince thing. I'm over it, but the waiting game was no fun at all.

And speaking of the waiting game, the potential Ryan Braun suspension cloud has completely tarnished the time when I should be lining up details for my 15th annual spring training trip.

But I'm powering through it, and we just booked our tickets to Arizona, where I've spent a portion of my March each year since 1998. I'll be reporting on scene from March 14-19.

Something just doesn't feel right, though. Maybe it'll evaporate on the berm. I just feel ... apprehensive. Hope is supposed to spring eternal, but fall did, too.

Maybe I just need to see it in person. I want to reignite my love for baseball. Mentally, I'm just not there yet. You?

Andy is the president, publisher and founder of OnMilwaukee. He returned to Milwaukee in 1996 after living on the East Coast for nine years, where he wrote for The Dallas Morning News Washington Bureau and worked in the White House Office of Communications. He was also Associate Editor of The GW Hatchet, his college newspaper at The George Washington University.

Before launching OnMilwaukee.com in 1998 at age 23, he worked in public relations for two Milwaukee firms, most of the time daydreaming about starting his own publication.

Hobbies include running when he finds the time, fixing the rust on his '75 MGB, mowing the lawn at his cottage in the Northwoods, and making an annual pilgrimage to Phoenix for Brewers Spring Training.